Torn Apart

Again
You are going..
We do not talk like we used to
Where were you when I needed you?
and you let me down
I am not strong enough

I have been waiting for you day and night
Do you know what is on my mind?
I am fucking tired

I am tired of waiting for a text that is never makes
me feel good and special
I am tired of crying
being sad, being alone
pretending
remembering
feeling worthless
feeling empty inside
getting hurt, getting weaker

I am tired of missing you
I miss the old you
the old us
the new one sucks..

Everytime I read our old conversations
I realize how close we used to be
how much has changed

Stop asking me if is something wrong!
I am tired of lying
Please..

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No Exit

Well
Here I am...
not sure what to write, or even to say...
I am kinda lost, sad
I want to be free and happy
I cannot keep up
I do not even know why am I being so down
you probably know better than me...
and I want to know
why am I never good enough for anyone?
sometimes I think the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
oh God
I hate getting flashblacks from things
I don't want to remember
alright, I need to learn how to stop wasting my time
on people who don't love me
and I wish I could go back to when
 everything was SIMPLE.

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