Goodbye

there's no more us..
no more kisses, hugs
nomore goodnight texts, stupid jokes
and fights
no more"I'm sorry." "I love you."
no more making up
my chritsmas present, aha
i really love it
i wish i don't remember how you were
such a big part of my life

i really miss you..
i can't breathe without you
i have to try not to care anymore..
my parents are still fighting
and you're the one who understand my feeling
now, you were leaving me with
sleepless night
millions thought of you
but one day, our memories start to fade..

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Long Distance Relationship

You know what I love most about us?
I love how comfortable we are with each other
how we make fun of each other
but never take the teasing straight to heart

I love how you call me everytime just to see me smiling
how you need me as much as I need you
how you put effort into me when I am grounded
and how the way you make me feel

oh fuck
I really want to hug you, want to see you
 make you smile, make you laugh
lie down next to you on my be
fall asleep, it would be so damn nice

I hate damn distance
I just want to be with you..
I want you and
your flaws, mistakes, smiles, jokes
and sarcasm, everything.

being so far from you
it's kiling me everyday..
I miss you as soon as I woke up from bed
and when I'm about to sleep
wish you're next to me
hold me in your arms
hug and kiss me..

I'm so jealous of people who get to see you everyday..
but I'll try not to worry
I just need to wait until this distance
is no longer between us.

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Torn Apart

Again
You are going..
We do not talk like we used to
Where were you when I needed you?
and you let me down
I am not strong enough

I have been waiting for you day and night
Do you know what is on my mind?
I am fucking tired

I am tired of waiting for a text that is never makes
me feel good and special
I am tired of crying
being sad, being alone
pretending
remembering
feeling worthless
feeling empty inside
getting hurt, getting weaker

I am tired of missing you
I miss the old you
the old us
the new one sucks..

Everytime I read our old conversations
I realize how close we used to be
how much has changed

Stop asking me if is something wrong!
I am tired of lying
Please..

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No Exit

Well
Here I am...
not sure what to write, or even to say...
I am kinda lost, sad
I want to be free and happy
I cannot keep up
I do not even know why am I being so down
you probably know better than me...
and I want to know
why am I never good enough for anyone?
sometimes I think the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
oh God
I hate getting flashblacks from things
I don't want to remember
alright, I need to learn how to stop wasting my time
on people who don't love me
and I wish I could go back to when
 everything was SIMPLE.

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